Beyond what we can bear

I have been taught my whole life that God will not tempt us or give us trials beyond what we can bear.  I do not believe that is true.  I have had people throw that out to me and I wonder how we ever came up with that one?  Ok, so let’s say that God [...]

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Who Am I Married To?

I have been having little panic attacks lately.  Most of the time, I do not even think about this but today, I keep getting this idea in my head that I do not even know my husband.  The man he was, or at least I thought he was, is not who he is at all.  I [...]

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We don’t have enough information

I wonder why life has to be such a mystery.  I used to think it was part of the test.  We have certain clues along the way from scriptures and a prophet to guide us through on current problems.  We are here to be tested.  Our probation here on this earth for our 70 years [...]

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I don’t want to live, I don’t want to die

I don’t want to die
11 03 2008

I am so distraught.  It is 1:00 in the morning and here I am, reaching out to an ear.  I would be suicidal right now but I am not.  I don’t want to die.  I have figured out that dying is not the answer.  Afterall, my problem stems from the [...]

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What did I do wrong?

Promises, Promises

I mentioned before that when my hubby asked me to marry him, I told him, “no.” 
He was not the man I needed to make my dreams come true.   My dreams included being a very stong, righteous family,  Active in the church.  He said he could do that and we had very long discussions for the next [...]

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Comfort, Where can I find it?

I continued to read my scriptures.  We continued to read together as a family, minus hubby almost every morning.  We still tried to have family home evenings but eventually that started to become so awkward.  Eventually, the only thing we could comfortably do was watch Antique Roadshow together.  The kids would try to talk to [...]

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