I was in a spiritual meeting and doing the same old, trying not to care thing I do to protect myself. Too often, when I actually try and get something out of a speaker at church or fireside, etc, it just ends up reminding me of what I have lost.
I wasn’t paying attention very well but the speaker said something about being God-like. I’ve heard it before but for some reason, a whole vision passed before my eyes. Those little words evoked a huge emotional response from me and suddenly, I was filled with hope and more desire than I have felt for years, to try and be more God-like.
I have been begging God for so long to give me this kind of vision, something to hang on to. It happened so quickly, so simply, & so strongly. It happened when I was feeling more un-God-like than ever and more damned. But it was the sweetest feeling I’ve felt in years.
I still hang on to that moment. I have hope. I actually, once again, care about what happens to me because I have hope that some good can come of all this.
